Bad at Names

I am really bad at names.  Everybody says they are bad at names but I really am.  Yesterday I was told that a little girl died in an orphanage Annette and I have helped in the past.  I spent a considerable effort trying to get straight which orphanage was being described.

Finally I said the one where my son played and laughed with the kids in the rain and I slept on the floor?  Instantly my sons face and this other wet face popped into my mind.

The moment is crystal clear in my memory of these wet happy faces gathering buckets of rain water.  The laughter and the joy that filled the air that night will live with me forever.

This morning I asked for a picture of the little girl that had died of typhoid.  The picture shocked me to my core.  The face is the same face that I envisioned.  This one really hurt.

I'm sorry I didn't ask your name then.  I'm sorry that even if I had I would not have remembered your name today.  I will remember your laughter and the joy you brought to my ten year old son forever.


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Post Traumatic Growth

Protecting the unborn

I'm looking for some feedback for a postcards. Using this picture. 

Last year Preventive Health Strategies helped single moms in every county in SD. PHS uses hand held ultra sounds. The impact this has on the mom is immediate. Once a mom sees her baby sucking on its thumb her life is for ever changed. PHS thanks you for the 453 uninsured single moms from South Dakota that you helped in 2012.

+Annette Bosworth, MD using vscan

Description: Phs has given 453 mothers a first impression they will never forget. It is thanks to Phs and dr. Bosworth that these babies are alive and giving their mothers a new impression every day.

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How do I add the fact that women are at risk so long term birth control should be mandated. 

homeless and parenting

12/10/2012


We just got done having a long talk with our boys. Walker Haber I don't like it when people feel "sorry" for me. Me "Why would they feel sorry for you?' W "Because we are homeless." Me "Do you think we are sad?" W "Sometimes?" Me "How do you think we move through that? We focus on the one beautiful thing that is or has happened in the day. Then we go forward being honest, open and willing." W "Isn't that why we are homeless?" I punted fed them CAKE! F...! Parenting is hard! 

+Annette Bosworth, MD +Walker Haber +prescott haber in the RV

I have started thinking of this as Post Traumatic Growth  



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Listen God

My prayer this morning,

"Listen God. You and I both know that we ( +Annette Bosworth, MD ) are doing our best. 

You can see we are putting everything we have into this.

If you want us to do better you got to show up and do your part of the deal. 

The "Hell with it" you know we are not capable of doing anything less than our best because that's our job. 

Just give us a high five on our way through the pearly gates and say, "The two of you did an awesome job!"

+Annette Bosworth, MD +Walker Haber after orchestra

I think that if we are allowed just a little bit of time to heal we will grow from all that has happened to us Post Traumatic Growth.  The issue is that we are not given that time everyday the attacks come from the same man.  This is called "economic terrorism" - attacking constantly so that there is no way to defend - historicaly the preferred weapon of corrupt governments.








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Wealthy

"Happiness = Satisfaction / Desire"    Anonymous

“If you have enough money to satisfy your desires, you are rich. But there are two ways to be rich: You can earn, inherit, borrow, beg, or steal enough money to meet expensive desires; or you can cultivate a simple lifestyle of few desires; that way you always have more than enough money.”  Dave Ramsey, lots of people, but I think Dave Ramsey will get traffic to this blogg

Rich = Wants / cash flow   

Step one—Ask for God’s great blessing and He is bound to bless you

I pray that God will give me "Super Natural Favor"  I have had this every day since I accepted that this is what is intended for me.

What is "Super Natural Favor?'"   Annette has been using this term.  I did not slow down enough to process what she was saying.  There is a distinction between "favor" and "super natural favor."   The word "Supernatural" has always made me flinch.  Annette using the term "Supernatural favor" bothered me.  This raised my awareness to others using "Super Natural Favor" I agreed with Annette.  We (Annette & I) have been given "Super Natural Favor".  

Natural favor must be earned, but supernatural favor is a gift. Natural favor says, If you work hard enough and long enough, some people will like you some of the time.

But that acceptance must be maintained, and having to say and do all the right things becomes a form of slavery. God does not expect us to run around trying to earn favor with Him or with others. 

Example I liked "God isn't impressed with us for climbing the mountain, he made the mountain." Keith Loy

God expects us only to do God's will whether it is popular or not. Just do your best and leave the results to God.

Annette's prayer as long as I have known her "God grant me the courage to do the next right thing."

 Step two—Ask and God will enlarge your territory (Grant you success)

I pray that my territory continues to grow.  Last week was a prime example of this, I thought that my territory had shrunk by 700 instead God was showing me that my territory was already 70,000 and I was not to doing my part.

 Step three—Ask and God will bring a touch of Greatness to your life 

By being persecuted I'm showing that it never was me that was doing these things it was my God through me.  By being stripped of the distractions that money and possessions bring, I was able to finally see that I am much more.  

Step four—Ask and God will keep the "Appearance of impropriety" away.

In my case, I pray that the devil remains using incompetent tools.
I pray that, "Appearance of impropriety" stays outside and does not return to within my family.

This week I have people asking me how are you going to make money?

Money does not = Happiness

I will not go back to the "happy does not exist" rant.  But, one thing that is beyond question is that money is not the answer.

My wants/things that will satisfy me are very simple.  

I want my wife to be left alone.    This one I know is unattainable, she is not capable of walking by somebody in need that she has the ability to help.  Annette's foundational prayer "Grant me the strength to do the next right thing."  Will always keep this out of reach.  It is good for a man to want and to have something to strive for.

I want our influence to continue to grow.  I want time with my wife and kids.

This is unrealistic an assistant attorney general is a very powerful enemy to have.  They have the power of the State the "Department of Criminal Investigation" as staffers.  This is unimaginable power.  I have seen people intimidated, threatened for supporting Annette.

I want people to look beyond the headlines, and see that they could be next to be attacked.  The accusations are horrific with no facts.

Money is not the answer.  There is not enough money that any single person has to do this.

Mission Field: South Dakota

11/17/2012

I strongly believe that Annette and I have been given a three fold mission reset, renewal and reform for South Dakota.

Reset: the easiest way to do this is to take teams to Haiti.

Annette prays this before every trip, "god please allow them to see only what they can handle"
The first few times I heard her do this I didn't understand. The more people I expose to Haiti the more valuable these words become. It amazes me how a beautiful act of kindness will be happening right in front of us and the team member will focus on the need for the building to be painted.

When the team returns to South Dakota the team member will end up noticing the need in South Dakota. I thought they missed in Haiti. The team member will eventually start working on the noticed problem in South Dakota.

I call this a "hard reset" resetting what the team member sees as important.

Renewal: remind them what it feels like to care.

"Nobody cares until it becomes personal to them."

Mission based: take native Americans, addicts, kids, teens, families, churches to Haiti. No matter what personal injustice they have incurred Haitians have it as bad and with less.

Disciplined: teach personal accountability, you can't control the results but you can choose the path.

Reform: total
Self: open, honest, willing, transparent
Community: should be held accountable, once the population sees the benefits from living this way they will expect it from leaders as well.
School: what and how is being taught. Creativity and Critical thinking are what needs to be taught. Not, memorization.
Health: personal accountability, financial means and what is the outcome need to be held to up same standard of accountability. The individual needs to do everything in their power to do their part.
Accountability can only happen in a small group setting. Ideally an individual would be long to several. Group of peers, group that is inter generational in their chosen profession, family.

Social concerns are important; ends and means are important. What is the best possible outcome, what is the exit strategy?

Prevenient Grace

I have not heard this term since I went through my confirmation class. I was confirmed United Methodist around 1982.

Prevenient Grace, "There is nothing this man can do to save himself. Outside help is his only hope." John Wesley founder of the Methodist Church.

I need to reread John Wesley's "Appeals to man of reason and religion." I think I would take more from it than I did when I was twelve.

Bedtime stories from 2000 miles away

I have seen this feature advertised for months.  I honestly had no desire to try it.  I took my three young boys to Haiti.  My wife had to stay home.  My boys are well traveled.  I didn't think much about the trip.  My six year old started complaining about missing mom.

I tried Google Hang Out, I'm in Haiti.  Odd we have internet for free but no cell coverage($3/min) equals no cell coverage.

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I sent her a Facebook message to try Google Hangout.  The whole process took a few minutes to get it to work the first time.  This was a great experience, the next night the fun of playing with the funny hats and sounds was done and Annette got to make her normal funny sounds.  The boys loved it (including me).

Push Back

Ralph Waldo Emerson described this truth of human nature accurately:
Men succeed when they realize that their failures are the preparation for their victories.

POINT #1: YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES AREN’T YOU

POINT #2: YOU CAN’T CONTROL WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU, ONLY YOUR REACTIONS

POINT #3: WHEN YOU STOP BLAMING, YOU TAKE BACK YOUR POWER


Today when I look at the kids in Haiti. I have more hope for them than I do my own kids.
The statement that has stuck with me about Annette's ordeal is "shocking to one's sense of fairness."

The Haitian kids don't expect things to be fair. But, they do expect to be able to have a rational and reasonable conversation.

They don't expect to be treated fairly by the government. The expectation by Haitians is that if you are noticed by an official (doing above average) your lively hoods, business, kids and land will be taken by the government.

When I am able to take a step back and look at the situation from Haiti. The most likely direction for the Haitian kids is up. My kids the next leg will likely be even further down.

Drop off

The little kids in the back of the tap-tap are being dropped off at a Haitian orphanage.

The whole experience brings back memories of taking livestock to market in the back of a pickup with my grandpa when I was a kid. The only difference being that at least some paperwork was done on the livestock(a check if nothing else).

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Inspirational YOUTUBE videos

I am stuck in a traffic jam in Haiti.  I have been thinking about youtube videos that inspire me.

1)  Hans Rosling: Stats that reshape your world-view

2)  Derek Sivers: How to start a movement

3)  Simon Sinek: Start with Why

4)  How to live before you die - Steve Job explains

5)  Barry Schwartz: The paradox of choice

6)  Randy Pausch’s Last Lecture: Achieving Your Childhood Dreams

7) 1989

8)  Cure for Alcoholism

9) One Red Paper Clip

10)Abundance 

Tap-Tap is moving!!

This is a Haitian "Tap-Tap"

First grade

Why are you crying? I want Walker to change his mind.